Today school started. It was crazy, but that was to be expected.
I have been struggling with a thought lately. Wondering what my purpose is here. Wondering why we came, what we are doing here? I look at my job and say,´I am only a teacher, I could do this in America and be a lot more comfortable´. But, alas, that is not what God wants. So, I choose to obey Him. To rest in the fact that He knows all, He is in charge of everything, and He is good. He has a purpose, and I may never see the fruits of my labor until heaven.
I have been reading a book of Puritan Prayers call ´The Valley of Vision´. It is a wonderful read, and often I find myself aghast at the fact that these people lived hundreds of years ago, yet struggle as I do. I want to write down a prayer that ministered to my heart today, hoping that maybe it will minister to yours. It is ironic to read this here, because we are in a valley, surrounded by mountains all around. And it is here that my heart sees Him more clearly, and my heart aches more vividly for this world that has been broken.
LORD, HIGH AND HOLY, MEEK AND LOWLY,
Thou hast brought me into the valley of vision,
where I live in the depths but see thee in the heights;
hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold thy glory.
Let me learn by paradox
that the way up is the way down,
that to be low is to be high,
that the broken heart is the healed heart,
that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit,
that the repenting soul is the victorious soul,
that to have nothing is to possess all,
that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,
that to give is to receive,
that the valley is a place of vision.
Lord, in daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells,
and the deeper the wells the brighter thy stars shine;
Let me find thy light in my darkness,
thy life in my death,
thy joy in my sorrow,
thy grace in my sin,
thy riches in my poverty,
thy glory in my valley.
Miss you. Love you.
Comments (3)
That is beautiful sweetheart...love you. I am proud of you both and know that God is going to use you mightily. Do not give way to fear and let the enemy lie to you about your purpose....
love you friend! i am back on email/internet now... so we can be friends via the blogging world again! dj said you guys got a PO box so yay for that! annnnnd, email me! i want to hear about your first week with the kiddos. love you!
PS... just went back and read all your posts that I missed during my internet hiatus. LOVED them. And I LOVE the valley of vision... thanks for sharing!