March 7, 2011
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our fig tree isn’t budding…
Well, I write this as we have just gotten our internet service back after five days, possibly more, I lost count. In the past week, we have had two entire days without electricity. The first was a full 19 hours, the second was a 10 hour day. No electricity means no water also, because you can’t run the pump without electricity.
I am feeling beat down.
I have been sick with a headache and allergies for the past four days.
There is a boy in my class who screams and cries when it is time for English class, and then when he actually gets in the classroom, has started to run out, screaming “I don’t want her to touch me. She is a bad woman!” This may sound funny to some, but the sight of a child running from you in terror has brought me to tears on multiple occasions. I didn’t do anything to him, he just decided that he is scared of me. It has happened everyday since school started, and being hated is beginning to wear on me.
Jd has a migraine again today. He has had them very frequently, and despite the medicine that is supposed to prevent them, they have come back. I have been very concerned, because Jd had a migraine induced stroke when he was 14, and with the frequency at which they are occurring, I am afraid it will happen again.
Remember when I wrote about the problems in the school? The government made this list of teachers who supposedly owe the government L.100,000. The list is completely fictitious and merely a ploy by the government to beat down the teachers mentally. The list gets printed every few days and on Friday Arturo’s name was on the list. I am very nervous that he is not going to get paid anymore. The school’s have been striking already, and school just started a few weeks ago. Things are getting bad, and quickly.
My friend Allison sent me a message today on Facebook and reminded me of what we know to be true.
“I’ll be praying for you and Jd- sorry to hear everything going on… when it seems like everything is going against me- I am reminded of Habakkuk… waiting on being invaded by an army, but he continues to rejoice in the Lord…
3:16-17
“I heard and my heart pounded,
my lips quivered at the sound;
decay crept into my bones,
and my legs trembled.
Yet I will wait patiently for the day of calamity
to come on the nation invading us.
Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to tread on the heights.”Because the truth of the matter is that God is in control of everything. He is not surprised by names on a list, migraines re-apearring, or tears invoke in grief. So, we will continue to rejoice in Him, find our joy and strength in Him, even if the fig tree isn’t budding.
